i've been thinking...

dangerous, i know! i get frustrated when life seems so complicated. when my emotions have no words to describe them. when the only thing that i can do to survive is play some otherwise random song over and over until the tears stop. i'm not unhappy or anything, i'm just overwhelmed i think, and i'm ready to stop getting the short end of the stick. it would be really nice, if for once, things happened for my benefit. to just catch a break. how long can everything be so hard? how long do i have to wait to start seeing some improvement?