bad things i'm good at...

i have become rather good at doing quite a few things that are harmful to myself. one example of such actions is eating crap and too much of it, and another is choosing men that are absolutely, completely wrong for me. i am learning how to manage the first- i have actually lost 5 pounds this week- but it is a struggle. would you like to know what the most delicious foods in the world are? french fries. with cheese. or anything deep-fried. with ranch dressing to smother it in. or ice cream. the kind with all sorts of yummy deliciousness mixed into it... and i'm talking about the whole pint. but i'm training myself to eat differently. not so much cutting out any of those things, just cutting down the amount that i am consuming- and it's working! yay! as for the other thing... men. why does it have to be so difficult? i mean the whole thing about the good girl and the not so good boy together is proving true for me. i meet a nice guy, he's too boring. i meet trouble, i'm not very happy after a while or i end up trying to hang on to something that's worth nothing. i recognize that i like a challenge. but why are the challenging ones so challenging? i mean there has got to be a balance, right? well, i have yet to find the right balance. obviously. i have faith- i mean i still believe that He has a plan for my life- but i am so stupidly impatient. i hate waiting. i guess i'll just keep doing what i'm doing- kyler, work, school, work, kyler, school, kyler... only one of which is something that i absolutely love- totally and completely. not that i'm venting or anything. but hey, look on the bright side! i lost 5 pounds in a week!!!